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Ewww

15:06 Aug 30 2023
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Well the other day my late mother's cat decided to bring his own breakfast to me to cook for him. I went to the door in the morning to let him in and there he was with a dead bird in his mouth. He looked up at me with this poor bird in his mouth may I come in? I said um no mister Salem not in my kitchen you are not, lol he looked up at me again and I swore he said fine bitch threw up his tail and went on his way to the lawn and ate it.

Salem is all black and when my mom got him from my nephew his old name was Lucifer. My mom said absolutely not a name I want for him so instead she started calling him Salem. Salem I believe is missing his mistress as he likes to only sleep on her blankets and when I sit on her chair with her blanket he comes up and lays on my lap for a bit of a cuddle. She has another cat named Casper. He is not as cuddly but when he wants pets he will let you know.


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Some of my favourite flowers

03:29 Aug 30 2023
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I took these pictures myself when I was at my favourite park. These are some of my favourite fall flowers that are now in full glory.

These are called popcorn flowers



Of course foxglove




Red Zinnas




White Cosmos


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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
19:09 Aug 30 2023

Oh. So that answers my question if these from your garden. :)





CountessLili
CountessLili
14:45 Aug 31 2023

I wish they. I do well my mom had planted some mums and dalias I have not taken pictures of yet.





 

Damn wasp!!!!

00:52 Aug 29 2023
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Went to the park today and had a great time with my girlfriend from out of town and her daughter spent time with mine. We had a picnic but a damn wasp decided to sting me for no reason. I guess he didn't like the fact I kept my coke drink covered up. Ouchy did that fricken hurt and my arm had swelled up something awful even after I took some allergy medication. I have soaked the spot with apple cider vinegar and it has seemed to work a little.


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For coffee lovers

04:27 Aug 26 2023
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Hi there I am going to make this thread for those who have some yummy recipes they would like to share!!!

What is cooking in your kitchen/caldron?

This serves 12

For you coffee lovers:

Spiced Coffee or Espresso

1 cup of coffee beans or espresso beans
2 tbsp cinnamon ground
1/2 tsp ginger
2-3 cloves
1/2 tsp nutmeg
1 tsp brown sugar or to taste
1-2 tbsp cream or milk

begin by grinding the beans, cinnamon, ginger, cloves, nutmeg in a coffee grinder. Grind the mixture till smooth or until prepared to the right coarseness for your preferred brewing method. Brew the coffee or espresso mixture with your preferred method. Lastly add the brown sugar and milk to taste.


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15:34 Aug 17 2023
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Well I bought new hair color and some new make up and thinking that I need to step it up and start taking care of myself again. It cost me over a hundred dollars to get new make up and I got just the simple ones none of the contouring stuff like the younger set does these days. I guess I am old school lol. Just foundation and powder and eye shadow and that kind of thing. It has been years since I bought the stuff and a long time applying it too. I woke up this morning and put on my classic rock and put it on and my husband said are you going out today? I said no just stepping up things and he kissed me on the forehead, then said you are beautiful with or without it. It is really nice to hear that and it makes me want to do more for myself because he did notice me trying and making an effort.

I have a skin routine though even when I didn't wear makeup. I clean my face and then moisturize and that is all I do and did. Being of my age it is good to do that. I am out in the sun a lot and we'll sun is good for you but after awhile it does show in your face. I don't mind the wrinkles appearing I guess I think I earned them lol. The gray hair not so much so I picked a nice spice color to spice myself up. Lol.

I am beginning to realize that self care is so important now, I never really thought about it to be honest. It is not just your mental health it is all rolled into one really. As you age as in women age you go through so many changes in your body and you either accept it gracefully or you have plastic surgery lol. It all happens so fast especially when you go through menopause. You have weight gain and you start feeling unattractive and you forget about yourself in most cases. If you have a busy lifestyle and kids and work you kind of put yourself aside and one day you look in the mirror and are shocked at the changes in your whole being. It may not happen with a lot of women but you sometimes think omg where did the time go what has happened to me. You forget you earned those laugh lines and gray hair, you earned the wisdom of time and learning about life. You see all these famous women having plastic surgery and social media telling you this is how you should look and you are in a constant battle within your self to look better on the outside. You forget to think about your inside and your mental health and go into a tailspin and give up. It is hard if you do not have a kind and loving man or partner in your life to tell you that you are beautiful no matter what. I guess I am very very lucky in this way.

I have had to take stock many times these past few years and mostly now since I lost my mom and I don't want to end up like her and forget that just because I am not as old as she was but I am getting there and have to take better care of myself and listening to my own body and doing stuff just for me and stay and get body healthy and mind healthy too. I have to remind myself I am not getting any younger in my body and I don't have much time left to do something about it. When you are young and firm and no wrinkles we say oh I have time to fix it, but in reality because you get really busy with life you forget. I know that is what happened with me, some don't. It is just takes five minutes a day to do one thing for yourself and look in the mirror and say I am worth it. It it takes just a bit of eye shadow and mascara and smile at yourself, a little walk around the corner. One step at a time and soon you will find yourself again and not be upset when you look into that dreaded mirror seeing wrinkles but seeing a mature woman with a lot more wisdom and inner aged beauty that you earned.


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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
15:52 Aug 17 2023

Well said! :)





 

Ugh note to self

20:49 Aug 09 2023
Times Read: 167


*Note to Self*. Make sure you look and see if you have mason jars before you start stewing up apples to make apple pie filling.


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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
23:01 Aug 09 2023

Oh oh...





CountessLili
CountessLili
20:01 Aug 10 2023

Crisis averted I used what I made and made apple crumble, muffins and a few apple turnovers.





 

My next project

16:34 Aug 06 2023
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This project is going to be a bit more challenging for me. I cannot save all of it like the whole sheet this embrodiery is on, but I can save the delicate embrodiery by renforcing the stitches and adding some fusiable web on the underside of it and then attach to a sturdier heavy cotton to make into a nice new bedspread I hope lol. I found out that my mom made this when she was pregnant with me, so this project just became more important to me to do.











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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
19:15 Aug 06 2023

Its beautiful. Maybe, if not save it as a whole, but cut the flowers and mat them in a picture frame, hang on the wall? That way you see it every day?

My grandmother use to make quilts. Then she lost her eyesight due to diabetes, but all her grandchildren at the time had one she made.





CountessLili
CountessLili
22:36 Aug 06 2023

Now there is a good idea. I am going to think long and hard how I am going to go about it. I just wish those rust stains were not there so I can keep all in one piece.





 

Yay the quilt is finished

15:27 Aug 06 2023
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I finished the quilt I was making yesterday. It is not perfect as it is only the second one I have done and this one is more detailed and has more to it. The pieces I made with it came from a blanket of my nephew whos dog decided to rip apart. I managed to save some of the fabric, what is more the blanket his silly dog wrecked his great grandma made him years ago. The extra pieces I picked up at the charity shops near my home and it is a good thing that they cost very little. All I had to do for the back is get a fuzzy blanket from Walmart, but of course silly me did not measure the quilt to see what size I needed so I decided to buy two of them and sew them together. The large squares of fabric are from Walmart as well. The edging I found a whole complete roll of it at the charity shop I loved. It was not meant to be for this particular quilt but I thought hey, use it for the binding around the quilt. It was not easy getting that one let me tell you. My poor old sewing machine went through a lot of fabric and I had to make a lot of new bobbin thread for this one. I have a new project now, I was silly and helped my dad get rid of my mothers clothes and it did not dawn on me to use them for a quilt for myself and my sister, but in cleaning up more of the linen closets I found a old bedspread my mom made herself. It has her hand embroidery on it but there are a lot of rust spots on the fabric and I already tried to get them and it is no use. So I am going to try and save the embroidery and put it on another piece of fabric and make my own bed quilt with it. I will have to do a bit of repair work with the embroidery and enforce the stitches. I just do not want to see her beautiful handwork go to waste.








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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
16:04 Aug 06 2023

Nice! And glad you are going to save your Mom's work.





 

Hello everyone

18:24 Aug 01 2023
Times Read: 213


Well it has been a week of hell for me. July 19 my mother passed away, and we scattered her ashes the following Sunday.Friends and family came to the house to give their condolences but for me it was all just a blur and it was like I was in a dream like state. At night leading up to the celebration of life I couIdn't get the sound of my mother's moans and cries of pain and the way she was gasping for her last few breaths, the hollow look of her face from my mind. Her death face is always in my mind and no matter hard I tried to replace that image with her beautiful face the other comes fire front. I guess it will take time for the change of what I seen and back to what I always known of my mother's beautiful face. Holding her hand as she took her last breaths was so hard but he heart beat was the first I heard and I promised myself I would be the first to hear it stop. My father was in the other room talking to his work when she took her last breath, my sister and long time friend where also in the kitchen. When mom took her last breath I immediately called everyone into the bedroom and my heart broke again to see my father cry in a away I never thought I would ever see. I left the room numb and I felt like I was floating and the whole world went silent. The hours leading up to her final breaths we saw by her and held her hand and talked to her and even though she couldn't hear us anymore, we told her it was okay to let go. We tried to ease her pain with medicine but it didn't work. At 5:15 am she left us and by 7:30 the funeral people came and got her. The next day I met up with a great friend of mine from out of town and we went for lunch. When we went shopping afterward I found a great dress and I put in on and I took a picture of me. I almost texted my mom to show her the dress. Things like that now are going to hurt.

The day of the celebration of life was the most beautiful day for it. It was quite hazy because of the smoke in the air, but when we were at her favorite spot as a child the haze went away and the sun shone down on us. A butterfly appeared and the wind calmed down as my father started to scatter her ashes. The world stopped once again when I realized that I would not sit with her in the morning and have coffee and or phone her for our daily chat. I can't show her the pretty I bought or ask her for advice in person. Even after even a week of loosing her it seems so unreal.

Our good family friend of 25 years or more was like a sister to me and a daughter to my parents stood with us and helped me care for mom when in her last days. She told me the same thing on how she feels and felt afterwards and seeing our mom like that. We have grown even closer. My dad is okay but it really hasn't set in for him. He has his moments but when you are with someone for over 53 years 54 this November it is going to be a bomb going off soon.


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Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
20:17 Aug 01 2023

Blessings sent. I lost both my parents, and a sister. Hang on, it takes time.





Ard
Ard
21:33 Aug 01 2023

My sincere condolences. I lost my mother also this year.








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